Friday, March 16, 2012

Dreams Reflecting Reality?

I know it's a bit late but I've been having these bizarre, almost scary dreams.

Last semester I had an advisor for one of my organizations here on campus. Her name's Brenna. So I'm pretty unacquainted with her but decided she's a decent human being, just that she's kind of bad at... human interaction. So in one of my dreams she was there, and I was trying to be nice to her. What ended up happening was she snapped at me for something, called me a bitch and kind of... just, started after me. I was not happy waking up. I think this is some sort of portrayal on my passive agressiveness. I just need to stop.

Money's been real tight lately, and I think this was one dream I had today. a little back story before we get in. I was trying to pay my phone bill last night, but I made a transaction twice through so now I"m down another 40$ (making it 80$) total. I was pretty disappointed and frustrated. I've been trying to figure out how I'm going to pay the 500$ deposit to come back for next year, and I don't really want to ask for extraneous help, but it looks as though I am having to take this option more and more. And so in my dream I kind of transcend into this crazy environment, doing crazy shit just to get money to keep going to school. It sucked, pretty much.

But yeah, that's about it for now. I haven't been logging my dreams like I should be, but..., oh well. There is only so much time for everything.f

Friday, February 3, 2012

Running and Dodging

I wish I could remember more of my dream. But it's the same, basic premise where I'm running from something. I ultimately escape, but just the simple chase really wears me out. I'm starting to wonder if this is supposed to be a sort of metaphor for my life... relentless education and work, and yet--my overarching goal is to simply reach a point in my life where I don't have to go through all  that trouble.

I don't really recall, but I was of a high position in the dream--something like a heavily protected princess of some sort. I was in an institution of some sort... perhaps a secret educational one that the government did not approve of, which was why government agents were after me and some of my...'crew'. I remember running through some narrow hallways, with a sidekick following closely behind me. There was a point when things finally started to clear up and the agents began to leave... but that's when I realize I had lost something precious to me. Furthermore, my S.O. was MIA, with me concluding he was... just really into himself. Not a terribly satisfying feeling honestly, because that's how I've been feeling IRL towards him...

Ah well. Let's see where this goes.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

No School

I had a terrible dream that my parents opted me out of Gustavus. I was incredibly heartbroken and confused as to why they would do such a thing. I remember going to great lengths to try to undo what they had done. For some reason, I ended up trying to go back to high school instead... and driving a big tractor of some sorts. I recall waking up feeling quite bitter about Dan as well... I can't remember why though.

The night before that I had dreamt that I was a superhero of sorts, and that I was being chased by some... bad guys or other. I jumped off a building, trying to land myself on a 367th floor or something like that. I can't remember now.

But yeah, For some reason, I've been dreaming every  night... different situations. They're never the same, but usually I am being chased.